It felt abrupt, a dismissal, and Devin gave her a long stare, not movingShe met the look, but her eyes were neither hard nor dismissive
"Don't be angry," Alienor said softly"You were too splendid to be leaving in angerI'm telling you truths: I do observe the Ember rites and it is hard to find your way back without a light She hesitated a moment, then added, "And I have always slept alone since my husband diedHis shirt he found halfway between the bed and the doorsIt was shredded so badly it should have been amusingHe wasn't amused thoughIn fact, he was angry, or some feeling beyond anger, or beside it, a more complex thingLying naked and uncovered among the scattered pillows of her bed, Alienor watched him clothe himselfHe looked at her, http://www.muluxury.com/scategory_11_Prada.html" target="_blank marveling still at her feline magnificence and even, despite the change of mood, even aware of how easy it would be for her to stir his desire again
But as he gazed at her a dormant thought surfaced from wherever thought had been driven in the primitive frenzy of the last few hoursHe arranged the shirt as best he could and walked over to claim one of the candles in a brass holder
She had turned on her side to follow his movements, her head now resting on one hand, the black hair tumbling about her, her body offered to his sight as a gift, a glory in the shifting lightHer eyes were wide and direct, her smile generous, even kind
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He hadn't expected thatHe knew, without having to be told, that she was honoring him with thisBut his thought, his disquiet from before was strong now and intermingled with other images, so that, although he smiled in return and nodded, it was neither pride nor honor that he felt
"Good-night," he said and turned to go
At the doors he stopped and, as much because he had remembered Alessan saying that the blue wine had begun with her as for any other single reason that he knew, then or later, Devin turned back to herHe looked, drinking in the opulence of the chamber and the proffered beauty of the woman on the bedEven as he stood there another candle died on the far side of the room
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He could see her eyes change, even from this distance and in this wavering of light and darkFor a long time she looked back at him
"You are clever," she said finally"Alessan has chosen well in you
"Ah!" said Alienor throatily, simulating astonishment"He actually wants an answerA true answer from a lady in her castle at the edge of the world It may have been a trick of the uncertain light, but she seemed to look away then, beyond where Devin stood, even beyond the tapestried walls of her room
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Devin thought about it
"Possibly that," he agreed softly, working it through"Or else an admission somewhere in the soul that we deserve no more than this, nothing that goes deeperSince we are not free and have accepted that
He saw her flinch then, and close her eyes
"Did I deserve that?" she asked
A terrible sadness passed over DevinHe swallowed with some difficulty
Her eyes were still closed when he left the room
He felt heavy and burdened, beyond merely tired; laden with the weight of his thoughts, slowed by themHe stumbled going down the stairwell and had to fling out his free hand to brace himself against the stone wallThe motion left the candle unguarded and it went out
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